few days back.
my supervisor asked me to come for a talk, a Phd talk.
so, i just went to the faculty. its a talk by Prof Emeritus Maunders, from Univ of Hull, UK. I thought its a normal, ordinary talk that was opened to everybody- a big unofficial talk. so i just went there without any expectations. i also invited some of my friends to the talk... but they cannot make it.
I went there and found out everybody is wearing professional dress, baju kurung or office attire, and me with my 'sempoi' shirt and pants (luckily im not wearing jeans.. huhu). plus, everybody seems like knowing each other and no one is at my age. well, its not a big deal because i always being the 'mude'-est in most of the faculty events.. i hate it. i always wish that i will looked 20years older when i have to join the faculty's activities because everybody always wondering my age... menci3x.
so, i just entered the room, a small room, like a meeting room. not many attended the talk, i think. then i asked some of the participant, is this a PhD talk. yup, i'm not in a wrong room. but, its a PhD talk especially organised to the supervisors, PhD supervisors. phd students was not invited. i dah rasa cuak. no wonder semua muka 'experienced' je. huhu...'
but they said, no harm in listening... since i already there. yup, actually i have to be there. my supervisor asked me to come. as the Pengarah of Graduate Biz School, she has the power to order me to join any events in the faculty, i think. so, im lucky to have her as my supervisor. so i can challenged myself to face this kind of situations.. the eerie situations.
during the talk, a participant asked prof about students who did Phd without master. Phd is the third level degree. how can u jump into Phd without experiencing the 2nd stage? haha, so the prof commented on it and like i expected.. he look at me. i knew, he maybe wondering why i was so young... its not a very good comments actually but according to him, its not possible as many had done it before... so, i am not that special actually. i can do it as many had done it before. during the talk, i try my best to be positive. ingat cerita katak pekak tu tasha... katak pekak berjaya sebab it was not influenced by others. so, the katak story keep circulating in my mind.
after the talk, i forced myself to sit down with the lecturers and do some talkies. its a refreshment time so everybody's talking. so, im trying to be professional and join the refreshment, talk to the participants and alhamdulillah, they accepted me- eventhough im not a PhD supervisor. i must get used to it because some day i would be in this community.. i think.
although i already got a not very promising comment about my 'conversion' in the talk just now, it doesnt turn out to be like that outside the room. they were very supportive. a participant even told me, she knew a boy from uitm who skipped his master. now he is continuing his phd in UM. he even can convince the examiners during proposal defense. and she quite sure that the boy could finished his phd in 3 years time. so for her, its nothing possible in the world. you just cannot stick to the order because everybody did it. not everyone is same.
so i got new encouragement to continue what i've done. yup, i must prove to the world, i can do it. since i am the first batch, and the first person that do this 'conversion' in the faculty, i must prove to them that, the conversion can be done. i am the experiment subject... yup. that's why the pengarah and timbalan pengarah knew me. haha.. i dont even knew i am that famous actually but yes, they know me. =P
so i think the story ended my 1st semester and i hope this is the conclusion of my first semester of my PhD journey. tasha, u r special. you may not follow the steps but its not possible for u to achieve your dream. so enough thinking that ' i tak layak la...', 'dorang silap issue offer letter kot', 'i cannot finished this journey because i dont have my masters', etc... i already completed my 1st semester. so i have to bear in my mind that, i must complete this journey, even if it takes more than 3 years. because, nothing is impossible. prove to the faculty that the 'conversion' is very meant for u.
adios first semester.. lots of progress in 2nd semester.. insyaAllah. Ya Allah, bantulah hambaMu ini. sesungguhnya, aku tidak mampu tanpa Mu.. amin.
my supervisor asked me to come for a talk, a Phd talk.
so, i just went to the faculty. its a talk by Prof Emeritus Maunders, from Univ of Hull, UK. I thought its a normal, ordinary talk that was opened to everybody- a big unofficial talk. so i just went there without any expectations. i also invited some of my friends to the talk... but they cannot make it.
I went there and found out everybody is wearing professional dress, baju kurung or office attire, and me with my 'sempoi' shirt and pants (luckily im not wearing jeans.. huhu). plus, everybody seems like knowing each other and no one is at my age. well, its not a big deal because i always being the 'mude'-est in most of the faculty events.. i hate it. i always wish that i will looked 20years older when i have to join the faculty's activities because everybody always wondering my age... menci3x.
so, i just entered the room, a small room, like a meeting room. not many attended the talk, i think. then i asked some of the participant, is this a PhD talk. yup, i'm not in a wrong room. but, its a PhD talk especially organised to the supervisors, PhD supervisors. phd students was not invited. i dah rasa cuak. no wonder semua muka 'experienced' je. huhu...'
but they said, no harm in listening... since i already there. yup, actually i have to be there. my supervisor asked me to come. as the Pengarah of Graduate Biz School, she has the power to order me to join any events in the faculty, i think. so, im lucky to have her as my supervisor. so i can challenged myself to face this kind of situations.. the eerie situations.
during the talk, a participant asked prof about students who did Phd without master. Phd is the third level degree. how can u jump into Phd without experiencing the 2nd stage? haha, so the prof commented on it and like i expected.. he look at me. i knew, he maybe wondering why i was so young... its not a very good comments actually but according to him, its not possible as many had done it before... so, i am not that special actually. i can do it as many had done it before. during the talk, i try my best to be positive. ingat cerita katak pekak tu tasha... katak pekak berjaya sebab it was not influenced by others. so, the katak story keep circulating in my mind.
after the talk, i forced myself to sit down with the lecturers and do some talkies. its a refreshment time so everybody's talking. so, im trying to be professional and join the refreshment, talk to the participants and alhamdulillah, they accepted me- eventhough im not a PhD supervisor. i must get used to it because some day i would be in this community.. i think.
although i already got a not very promising comment about my 'conversion' in the talk just now, it doesnt turn out to be like that outside the room. they were very supportive. a participant even told me, she knew a boy from uitm who skipped his master. now he is continuing his phd in UM. he even can convince the examiners during proposal defense. and she quite sure that the boy could finished his phd in 3 years time. so for her, its nothing possible in the world. you just cannot stick to the order because everybody did it. not everyone is same.
so i got new encouragement to continue what i've done. yup, i must prove to the world, i can do it. since i am the first batch, and the first person that do this 'conversion' in the faculty, i must prove to them that, the conversion can be done. i am the experiment subject... yup. that's why the pengarah and timbalan pengarah knew me. haha.. i dont even knew i am that famous actually but yes, they know me. =P
so i think the story ended my 1st semester and i hope this is the conclusion of my first semester of my PhD journey. tasha, u r special. you may not follow the steps but its not possible for u to achieve your dream. so enough thinking that ' i tak layak la...', 'dorang silap issue offer letter kot', 'i cannot finished this journey because i dont have my masters', etc... i already completed my 1st semester. so i have to bear in my mind that, i must complete this journey, even if it takes more than 3 years. because, nothing is impossible. prove to the faculty that the 'conversion' is very meant for u.
adios first semester.. lots of progress in 2nd semester.. insyaAllah. Ya Allah, bantulah hambaMu ini. sesungguhnya, aku tidak mampu tanpa Mu.. amin.
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