keropok lekor

dah lama sangat tak post something here...

i just can say that i am super duper busy.

and today...

I ATE MORE THAN 15 BATANG KEROPOK LEKOR- i never knew that i love keropok before... huhu~

ntah camne keropok ni cam best lak. kawan abg jay yang bagi.. emm.. ade sebungkus ag lam peti. leh goreng ag esok. hehe~

till meet again. tata~

huhuuu~

ntah kenapa ntah ngan hari ni.. soooo x productive.

kerja byk tp bermalasan.
rasa cam nak nangis je. rasa lonely. rasa boring. rasa moody. rasa malas. rasa geram. rasa mcm2. kerja byk. mmg byk. tp xle nak buat. maybe sbb cuaca kot. mendung+sejuk je. rasa lemau aje. haih. ni baru kat mesia. kalau g overc mau agaknye melintuk aje atas katil. sib bek study kat mesia aje. hehe.

aiyooo...
i know something. tasha xle lama sanagt duk sorg2. mudah lemau, mudah byk fikir bukan2. haih3x. need to get my shower. mandi air panas tyme ujan2 ni best gak. duk lam bilik air lama2...

owh, tensen!
tadi tasha call kedai kad kawen tu. dorg cuti seminggu! aiyoo, sempena CNY. please laaa... abg janggut balik pon seminggu. dorg bukak balik nex week, tu pun abg janggut dh balik sabah balik. eiii, bosan la. mana bleh camni. stress! camne nk tempah kad kawen cenggini. well, this really make me pissed off.

tambahkan tensen. tambahkan moody. tambahkan segala rasa geram+marah. haih.... paper xtulis ag. proposal xupdate ag. isk.. kadang2 rasa down la. selalu rasa down pun. eiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!

pic ni amek from here!

huuuuuuuuuuuuuuhuuuuuuuuhhuuuuuuuuuuuhhhuuuuuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhuuuuuuuuu~
(berapakah 'h' dalam 'huuhuu...' di atas?)

sekian~

nak pakai shawl

nakpakai shawl!
dah lama terasa nak pakai shawl but i dont have the confidence.
i should try, be confident and ignore what others may say.

td mashi dah ajar satu cara pakai shawl. tak sia2 mashi bertapa kat my house sempena halim pegi solat jumaat. dapat gak belajar.
outcome: tasha gi mcd tadi pakai shawl.

well, orang cakap, there's no rule in wearing shawl. just wear it and be confident. no one will say that u wear it wrongly. hmm, but confident is my major problem.

bestnye kalau boleh jadi soooooo ignorance.
ignore what others may say about u
ignore what u looks like
ignore ur weight, ur looks.. as long as u healthy

i'll try...
to wear shawl tomorrow.

nak try!!!!

saya gatal...

sebelum memulakan study, saya nak buat luahan perasaan.

saya rasa saya dah tak tahan lagi.

makin lama makin gatal

ok, please jgn pk yg bukan2. saya memang gatal ok!

tasha adalah seorang yg berkulit sensitif..mcm ame, adik tasha. just, ame lagi teruk r. xtra teruk.

memang kulit tasha kalo kena serang ngan ape2 serangga, gatalnya lambat nak baik. tinggal parut lak tu. gatalnya sangat gatal. sbb tu tasha selalu kesiankan ame. tasha paham perasaan dia. tp org yg tengok tak sepenuhnya paham. mereka cakap mereka paham. tp ramai antaranya sebenarnya tidak paham kesengsaraan itu. kalau tak, manakan kegatalan tu akan digaru sampai bersdarah2 melecek dan bernanah... manakan mereka akan membantu mengatasi masalah tu... (manakan???? pelik plak word nih..)

tasha alergi kepada hama, bulu kucing, debu... etc2. kalau tasha gi tempat byk nyamuk ke, misti tasha yg 1st kena gigit ngan nyamuk. begitu gak kalau gi kebun, lom ape2 ag, mist tasha yg 1st kena gigit dek pacat.

untuk entry kali ni, tasha nk gtau.. tasha gatal. tasha xtahan la. setiap kali tgk bintik2 merah kat kaki ke, tangan ke, badan ke... tasha jadi stress. bukan xsapu ubat. sapu. siap g klinik, dr bagi antibiotik ag. dr cakap, xleh wat ape2, just avoid cats... bila gatal. seminggu lebeyh baru ilang. pastu tinggal parut. sedeyh =(. wanita mana yg sukakan parut?

tasha gatal. tasha stress. tasha moody. xdapat nak study... nak balik tnganu... tp nak study... nak study kat tnganu r... =(

maka, tasha mulakan study tasha mlm ni ngan... moody.

please understand

the main issue of being full-time research student that does not requires you to go to lab or being in an office is:

many think that you are really free and have lots of time to do many thing!

in fact,

there are lots of thing that you have to do, that is why the research needs 3 years time to be done!

many people said they understand but actually they dont. if they really understand, they wont disturb your study time. i hate when i have to choose between my studies or fulfilling their request.

i need to be selfish. for my own priority. otherwise, i wont complete this journey. please people... please understand!

2011 resolution

alhamdulillah, it's 2011.

azam tahun baru?

i hope that i will be....

 

and

 

and

 

and

 and insyaAllah will be...

semoga 2011 memperbaiki diri kita ke arah yang lebih baik. kurniakanlah kepadaku, keluargaku dan umat Islam amnya, kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat. amin.

azam 2011 untuk blog

roughly about 24 hrs left b4 we say goodbye to 2010, and welcome to 2011.

sedar x sedar, dah 3 tahun tasha blogging (plus minus r). start blogging april 2008.. sampai la september 2008. stop kejap.. sambung balik april 2009... non-stop until now. kiranya tahun 2010 ni je la full year tasha blogging eh? hehe... terima kasih kepada pencipta blog. i never knew that i love blogging. ianya terapi.... hehe

owh, since 2010 dah nk abes n 2011 is just around the corner.. cam biasa la... azam?

ok.. azam tasha untuk menyambut 2011 ni adalah...

pertama,
tasha nak tukar layout blog ni. dah lama sangat tasha pakai layout ni. xsilap tasha semenjak tasha tau abg janggut minat retro. so, teringin nak cari background retro. xsangka plak tasha pun minat retro looks ni dan melekat la hingga ke sekarang. theme for 2011? maybe mengekalkan konsep yang sama, maybe not. we'll see... (poyo).

kedua,
tasha berazam nk grouping kan tasha punya articles. since banyak sangat kategori dalam blog ni, memang payah nk bezakan. maklumla, this is a mumbling blog. suka-suki je nk tulis ape. so... cam bersepah2 plak. bila entry sket2, x kisah la x categorizedkan pon. bila byk.. huhu... pening. maybe i'll classified them into motivation, masak-masak, familia, student life, working life, kerja kahwin, etc3...

ketiga,
tasha harap tasha akan terus berblog pada tahun 2011 dan seterusnya.. selagi hayat dikandung badan. moga entry2 tasha nanti meng'inspira'kan tasha n readers, yg baik2 aje, dan memberi kebaikan kepada semua... insyaAllah.

so, tu je azam tasha setakat ni sempena tahun baru. harap2 dapat dicapai. wishing all the bloggers as well as the readers out there a very happy new year 2011.

p/s: tasha xtau la guna nuff nang tu. i know blogging can make money tp tasha xtau cane... hehehe. nnt la bila rajin tasha belajar...

last week of 2010

ianya akhir bulan... gaji?
owh, gaji dah lama masuk.. b4 christmas lagi..

emm, saya rasakan saya ade satu perasaan iaitu... nak makan kek, nak shopping, nak jenjalan, nak tengok wayang!

hye, this is the last week of 2010. patutkah enjoy2 dlu sebelum memulakan resolusi tahun baru? hehehe~


walaupun 2 hari lps dah makan birthday cake my dear cousin, harith.. tapi rasa cam tak cukup lak. td tengok seri terbaru kat tv3.. tiramisu. terasa plak nk makan tiramisu. tp, tasha sebenarnya rindukan cheese cake... or something yg chocolate based yang melt2 gtu... em, dah lama xmakan choc indulgance. emm... kenapa terasa nak makan lemak2, manis2 ni? adakah ianya sindrom akhir bulan di akhir taun? am i celebrating something?

nak gi shopping... nak beli sport shoes sbb the previous one dah rosak... rajin exercise katakan. hehe. nak beli wedding present tuk kengkawan, nk beli comforter, nak beli kain untuk baju family on the big day, nak siapkan belian barang2 hantaran, nak tempah baju nikah, nak... byk nye nak beli!

bukan tasha dapat bonus pun yang nak belanja sakan ni. owh tasha tau, tasha menyahut seruan kerajaan untuk year end sale ini.

i think im going out tomorrow. ke pusat kesihatan UiTM, ke Jakel dan.. maybe ke Jusco. we'll see... n so not the best part is... i'm alone. what to do. i rather going out on weekdays than weekend. i hate congestion =)

hye, its already the last week of 2010. apa resolusi tahun 2010 yang belum tercapai? apa yang patut dilakukan pada akhir2 tahun ini? dah rangka2 azam baru tuk 2011 nanti? tasha sedang merangka2 and tasha rasa azamnye tak banyak lari pun. hehe.

2 happiness

alhamdulillah.. 2 kegembiraan semalam..

seperti umum tau, Malaysia kalahkan indonesia 3-0 semalam. wah.. sangat best! xsia2 tasha tgk bola dari awal sampai akhir semalam. dorang punya permainan sangat mantap walaupon ni 1st time tasha tgk bola betul2. hehe. sedikit kecewa dengan kes pancaran laser tu. xkisah la sape yg buat tp tu tunjukkan mentaliti orang itu- memalukan. harap tindakan sewajarnya dapat diambil. perbuatan dia mencacatkan kejayaan malaysia sedikit sebanyak. sigh. pepun, Malaysia memang best!

yang klakarnye, tengah syok2 tgk bola, masa permainan berbaki 10 minit ag, mak call. mak terkejut coz tasha ngan k long tgk bola... ye la.mana penah family kami tgk bola, especially the girls. biasalah mak, nak kawen ngn peminat bola ni... kne la belajar tgk bola.. hik3. dalam hati, teringin nak tgk bola kat stadium satu hari nanti... wuu~

emm, cam biasa mak nak membentangkan progress perkahwinan tasha. banyak plak mak cerita, mug (doorgift) xcukup la, kain net kaler merah dah abes la, buku hantaran terbaru dh kuar.. mitak tasha belikanla.. etc2. at the same time, kak long plak menjerit2 depan tv. buat tasha tak keruan je. 2-2 tasha xle concentrate. mak plak cakap non-stop. aiyuk... nak tgk bola, tp mak banyak nk cite ni. hehe. k long plak jadi pengulas x rasmi depan tv. last2 sekali cakap ngan mak, tasha call balik.. heee, sorry mama'

cerita best kedua pada 26.12.2010 ialah congrats to abg janggut atas result masternye yang sangat membanggakan! abg janggut dapat 4 flat. all As! mantap. so far, cam abg janggut je dapat 4.0 sem ni sbb kawan2 dia ramai cakap result x sebaik yang diharapkan. millions congrats tuk abg janggut. keep up the good work n moga dapat grad master in engineering dengan cemerlang seterusnya leh masuk UNISZA nanti.. amin.

ok, 2 kegembiraan semalam. syukur Alahamdulillah =)

ubat jerawat

alhamdulillah, jerawat tasha dah xde. syukur sangat. yang tinggal hanyalah parut.

amazing sbb just 2 months jerawat dah xde. doctor chin pun kagum. tp doctor suh amik 1 bulan ag sbb takut jerawat tu naik balik pas few months. fuhh~ tasha ingat dah xyah makan dah ubat tu... =( tapi tasha baca kat internet, pil ni kena makan 6 bulan. tasha makan 2 bulan dah ok. doctor cakap tasha leh makan 3 bulan je ubat tu sbb jerawat tasha dah baik. alhamdulillah. hopefully.

tapi ubat baru yg doctor bagi tuk 1 bulan ag tu Acnotin 20! dlu acnotin 10 je. maybe sbb tgk dah elok doctor bg yg 20mg plak supaya cepat sket sembuh kot.... tasha search lam internet. banyak plak side effect makan acnotin 20 ni. cam lagi dahsyat dari acnotin 10 la.

antaranya.. dryness yang agak dahsyat, chopped lips. xle pregnant semasa makan ubat ni. sakit kepala, depression etc3.

dan tasha dapat rasakannya sejak pas makan ubat tu tadi. sakit kepala! tasha tdo je hari ni. aiyooo. pastu asek haus je sbb kering. so far kulit tasha ok ag, cuma bibir je kering. dan yg pasti tasha dh stat rasa sedih2-depression! cepat tul effect ubat ni. baru sebijik makan dah jadi cenggini. masa makan acnotin 10 dlu xde pon side effect teruk camni kecuali chopped lips r.

tasha rasa macam kne jumpa doctor balik la... tasha rasa tasha xseswai makn ubat ni. tasha xnak depress ok. i wanna live a happy life =)

emm.. camne ek?

pagi tadi tasha beli nasi lemak...

pastu masa nk gi kaunter tu, pembungkus nasi lemak tu cakap, nasi lemak tasha rm3.00. tasha amik 2 lagi karipap, taruk lam transparent plastic. then pegi kaunter tuk bayar.

sampai kaunter, tasha bgtau ni nasi lemak paru dan tunjuk kat dia karipap yg tasha amik tadi. dia masukkan karipap tu dalam plastik nasi lemak dan cakap rm3.30.

'murahnye...', detik hati tasha... then terus keluar kedai n balik. sampai rumah tasha terfikir balik... mungkin dia ingat karipap tasha sekeping je kot tadi, so dia charge rm.30. sebab tu total rm3.30. maybe la...

emm, ape patut tasha buat eh? patut ke tasha pegi kedai tu balik and tanya dia tentang makanan semalam? perlu ke tasha bayar rm.30 lagi? mungkinkah dia tersilap atau mungkinkah tasha diberi diskaun sebab kecomelan tasha? (haha..pls ignore this! =P ).

cane ek.. apekah yang perlu tasha lakukan ek?

bola sepak

saya sebenarnye tak suka bola.. hehe. sebenarnye, saya tak suka sukan pun.. =P

family tasha pun tak layan bola sangat. memang xlayan pon kot.. hehe. kalo ade match kat tv, pasti kitorang cam xtau pun ade match hari tu. ntah la kenapa. abaang2, adik2 lelaki tasha semua tak layan bola. ntah la kenapa.

tapi lain plak bila abg janggut adalah kaki bola. dlu rasa cam kecik ati gak. asek2 bola. kalo tgh borak2, and tetiba berita sukan je.. trs tasha diignore. cakapla apepun masa tu... ianya ibarat tv yang telah di'mute'kan... tiada suara, hanya gerak mulut yg dapat dilihat.. hehe

tp semlm, tasha tonton bola... malaysia lawan vietnam. hehe. haah la. rupanya fun jugak tgk bola nih. ade rasa cemas, berdebar2, tegang, marah, happy and macam2 lagi. apetah lagi pemain2 bola sanagt la gantang.. haha, betul ke perkataan tu. yang pasti. i love to watch bola semalam. xtau la next match camne tapi im looking forward for final piala suzuki, Malaysia lawan indonesia nanti. xsabar nak tgk depan tv!

tp, minat ni masih di peringkat awal. hehe, dont ask me about panalti, dont ask me about offside. i know nothing. tasha tau... GOL!!! je. hehe. masa maen bape minute pon tasha tatau. fail bukan?

tp fikir2 balik... berkahwin tu, berkongsi persamaan n menghargai perbezaan. wp tasha tak suka tgk bola, xkan tasha nak patahkan minat my future the other half kan? vice versa. xsalah cuba selami apa yang menarik sgt ttg minat pasangan kite itu. ceewah. emm, now i think i will watch football. wp bukan semua tp tasha akan belajar tgk bola jugak. hehe, misti abg janggut bangga ngan tasha ni. hehe, leh jadi isteri solehah ni.

pepun, harap Malaysia dapat menjuarai piala Suzuki ni selepas 14 tahun lamanya x ke final. InsyaAllah Malaysia Boleh!~

wondering~

i just wondering...

what would be happened to me in the next...

1 day?
1 week?
1 month?
1 year?
3 years?
5 years?
10 years?

what would be..

my future?
my family?
my house?
my car?
my financial condition?
myself?

will it turn good or bad?
takutnye....

give the best and let Allah do the rest!

conteng-conteng

dia tanya saya kenapa saya selalu tanya perkara yang sama?

saya pun bosan kenapa saya asyik tanya perkara yang sama.

sebab saya tak yakin dengan jawapan yang saya dapat.

sebab saya tak yakin dengan diri saya.

saya tau dia yakin dengan jawapannya.

tapi saya tetap takut jawapan itu akan berubah.

nanti misti dia akan bosan dengan perangai saya yang asyik tidak yakin ni.

bersediakah dia terima kekurangan saya ini?

owh, tasha. awak hebatlah. please put confidence in you. tapi janganlah riak plak. hue~

conteng-conteng

kadang-kadang rasa takut sangat ngan PhD ni. camne orang leh proceed n complete phd eh? cam susah je...

lagi susah tuk mereka yang takde keyakinan n tak de dream ni. isk... to be successful, u must have dreams, believe in yourself and try to achieve it, regardless what others may think about you. tasha tau tu tapi tasha tetap rasa takut and tak bersemangat.

kalau tengok THS (true hollywood story) kat channel E! tu, memang tasha selalu kagum ngan dorang. bekerja tanpa henti until they achieved what they want in live. wahh, seronoknya apabila kita tahu apa kita nak sebenar2nya, dan kita berusaha ke arah itu tanpa menoleh ke belakang ag.. tanpa biarkan duri2 sepanjang perjalanan itu membantutkan keazaman kita tuk mengecapinya.

bak kata celine dion,
'life's short. gotta go for it!'
celine start bekerja since she was 12 and she keep on moving, eventhough she got nothing-not from a wealthy family, do not have a sexy figures, not too beautiful, compared to others sexy artists at that time, etc. all she got is her amazing voice. she trust in herself and she did it. kelebihannya berjaya menutupi kekurangannya. and pedulikan apa orang kata.

to be successful, 1st thing is believe in yourself.

ok, i can do it!
jangan ragu2. semua orang akan alami kesusahan. focus dan berusaha. i will complete this. i can do this. i can complete my PhD (ulang 40x sehari kot..)

owh ye, kenapa ye artist2 hollywood ni sangat tak malu. perlu ke buat gaya ntah pape tuk VC dorang? eiii.. sakit mata. part tu tak bleh dicontohi la. part keyakinan n workaholic tu patut2 r dicontohi.... (tensen tgh VC rihanna.. tu lom tgk VC lady gaga ag.. sies rasa nak tutup muka n lari jauh2.. sigh~).

exploitasi terhadap wanita!

down!

petang ni cam x besh sket. tatau nape. rasa down je. 

down kerana...

maybe sebab kerja banyak... paper Dr Chan suh wat lom siap. esok dah nk jumpa dia. takut jugak. sbb tatau dia punya expectation camne. tambah lagi, I am a PhD student. so, i must prove to him that my work is not  same as undergraduate level. i hate expectation but i always think about it and want to fulfill it.

lagi rasa down kerana...

fikirkan banyak sangat jurnal tak baca lagi. diulangi, banyak sangat2x. dah la tak baca, problem statement, objectives, research questions, dependent variable, independent variable, moderating variable, intervening variable... semua x properly tulis ag. sbb nak betul2 valid ape yg nak tulis, kne read, read n read. punca kepada semua di atas ialah, saya tak membaca banyak lagi. saya perlukan masa n motivasi untuk membaca.

down juga kerana...

fikirkan akan ke PD starting esok hingga Thursday. lamanya. the best part is ada beach. i love beach. tapi since i dont know with who am i going to PD, what are the programs , who r the participants and what type of jobs will i faced, tasha rasa takut. as tasha sangat sinonim ngan -ve thinking.. so tasha da stat pk2 -ve. camne nnt kalo xde kawan, camne nnt kalo keje banyak. camne nnt kalo keje tu tasha xle bawak. camne nnt kalo tasha mengecewakan org? camne nnt kalo xde org nk jadi roomate tasha kat hotel? camne itu n ini yg wat tasha lagi stress.

down lagi kerana...

tasha rasa memang betul la ujian personaliti tu. petikannya:

Korang susah nak suka kat orang.kawan pon xramai.

tapi kalau ada bezfren memang leh kekal sampai mati. 

Korang agak pemalu,tapi kalau dah kenal perangai cam hampeh. 

tak reti malu langsung dah. 

still lagi beradab ikot pantang larang. 

dont be so low profile ok!

kesimpulannya... tasha xsuka orang itu. susahnya.... dan sekarang tasha rasa tension. maafkan tasha.

maka....sampai skrg tasha rasa stress ag.... =(

tahukah anda?

octopus akan makan dirinya pabila ia stress....

conteng-conteng #3

confuse 

nak ke tak nak

macam tak nak je

u still got time

jangan terburu-buru

tapi kadang-kadang

rasa serabut la 

sigh~

conteng-conteng

tidaakkkkk

saya kurang rajin

macam mana nihs

keje banyak sangat nih

prepare tuition

writing proposal

readings

RA's jobs

much2 more....

ape ubat kepada malas?

= tido 

supaya bangun tdo nnt dah rajin balik~

i wish!

i have been tagged!

Naniko tagged me to answer all the questions below….hmm, tough questions but it’s an enjoyable thing to do. The confession of me...hahaha

1.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Let him be- because this is so annoying and unforgivable!
Break up- no use of having a lover like that, once he cheated on you, then you know what kind of man he is…
Find someone else- life must go on….but must be extra cautious in finding new one.
Result: He will be regretful and hopefully miss me- because he will never find someone like me again as it just me that is like me in this world… =D

2.What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?
Just hoping he will found some one else shortly…then, he will ignore me =P

3.What will your dream wedding be like?
Happy, blissful and meriah! wish there are fresh flowers surround my weddings

4.Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
sometimes...

5.What's your ideal lover like?
1. agama- he can guide me and have the passions to learn and practice islam as a way of life
2. kepimpinan – he will be the future family leader. A good leader must be knows which is the right and wrong and know how to make decision. In fact, a leader must be responsible and full of loves…wink*
3. berilmu – he loves ilmu and have ilmu…ilmu penyuluh jalan…
4. harta- he got a good jobs and sedikit harta dunia… kemiskinan boleh membawa kepada kekufuran
5. good looking- this is so subjectives. He no need to be as handsome as erm…e.g aaron aziz… as long as I’m contented with his physical appearance, that’s enough.

6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
Being loved by someone….

7.If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
Nope… better find someone that love you…

8.Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
Yup….my final examination questions… especially survival model and general insurance II papers.

9.What do you want most in life?
Blessed, happiness, al-falah

10.Is being tagged fun?
Yup…hehe…. Until now, I love to answer all the questions…

11.If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?
Owh God…. Still be friend with her. For the sake of old days….
The boyfriend…. Hmm, better find someone that is loyal and sincere to his lover

12.Who is currently the most important person to you?
Wish to list down all of them…. But to choose 1, it would be my mom. Happy mother’s day!

13.What kind of person do you think I am?
Who is you and who is I?

14.What is the most unforgettable thing/event in your life?
Hmm…the stolen of my 6 months new scooter... it makes me extra careful when leaving my vehicles now.

15.If the person you secretly like cannot recognise you, what would you do/how would you react?
Sedeyh…..dan sedar diri….siapalah aku ini..untuk memintal buih, yang memutih…..(lagu jiwang yg sgt berkesan!)

16.Would you give your all in a relationship?
If the relationship meant marriage… I will try my best to be a good wife and the best mom in the world….isteri solehah, ibu mithali

17.If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
The person that have 5 characteristics above + he loves me more than I love him, and he loves Allah more than he loves me

18.If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
Jangan mare….hehehe…gurau je... =D

that's all.....continue to my project paper -

redah aje....

The tension is high….everyone seems so busy with their studies and project paper. Alhamdulillah my project’s going well. I got the result but yet to analyze it. Huh, this is the only part that makes me feel better. I am overwhelming with a very high tension fever. Today I feel very down and frustrated. It seems like everything went wrong for all these recent days. Thank a lot to Rao for always being there for me….

Survival model would be the most killing subject for me this semester…this is estimated by me as the expected score for this subject would be proportional to my degree of subject understanding. I still didn’t know my carry marks for this subject but I 100% confident the marks won’t be so much inspiring. Huh….

How about my preparation for the paper tomorrow? Honestly, I still didn’t understand the concept of this subject. What I know is survival model is a study of probability distribution for special kind of random variable. It involves many mathematical formulae such as exponential distribution, uniform distribution, weibull distribution, makahem distribution and gompertz distribution… all these formulas are used to calculate and estimate the probability of dying, qx…

But the formulae are killing me. I am so confused with the terms and where to use them. Until now, I hardly differentiate between moment estimation and the maximum likelihood estimation procedure… what are the differences between them?

Owh, this is very worst! The exam is tomorrow but it I don’t cover the subject very well until now, less than 24 hours to survival models paper! I need motivation and have to be positive. At this time, the phrase of nadia, af6 would be my word… ‘ redah aje….’. yeah, there’s nothing to be worried about for tomorrow. Just prepare as much as you can and tomorrow, redah aje…

Rasa frust?

Surah ali imran:139

Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang2 yg beriman…

Dunia ini sementara, akhirat itu yang abadi…

Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kejayaan yang mendekatkan aku denganMu dan tempatkanlah aku bersama hamba2Mu yang diredhai…amin