pray again

everytime i want to study...
my heart pumping so fast.
i cannot breath.
my memory blocked.
i couldnt think.
i couldnt concentrate.

i lost my appetite.
i cannot eat.
i weighted 50kg now, my previous one is 57kg.

i know this is a test
Allah loves me
He wants me to remember Him
i have to pray
i have to qiam
i have to zikr
i have to recite yassin everyday.
i have to learn to be redha.
i have to be strong
i have to overcome this..

it may takes time
i hope everyone will understand.
i want to study back.

insyaAllah i can...
be patient and never lose hope
pray..pray and pray...